He arrived in 2007 .. I know I'm paranoid and now I have proof.
I found some letters written to my destination ideal exactly a year ago .. Although this year has been full of new things, some good some not, I find myself writing the same things then .. Precisely: I'm ******* in the next 363 days !!!!!!
Always the same story, you know! If Christmas is the feast of altruism, in which everyone devotes a sweet thought to People that love, New Year is the celebration of individualism, where everyone comes to terms with its past and just ended with their future around the corner!
At least for me is this: He spent the first hours of the new year to retrace the movie moments and feelings lived and, wisely, choose mostly positive ones .. But that smug smile outcome of good memories, slowly loses its wholesale fold up and degraded in an authentic and ancient grudges, that existential sulk and I recognize that everyone needs a day to find out why .. Or better to find a plausible reason to explain it, but not necessarily warrant it ..
Well, today is the day of sulking "not-want-the-new-year." I want the 2003 !!!!!
The first year of university, the end of first love, the great inner revolution, cramps, fears, the fear of the first febrile steps in the life of Rome, the uncertainties ..
Now, I can not look ahead for fear of how I see them: bored, frustrated, tired, listless, and continuous silence splashed with myself, first and foremost, and with others, then. . I do not want this 2007! No, Nonono ninth !!!!!!!!! I want a 2007 that is like 2003!
But if so should I give up many things that I have won and in 2003 they were only chimeras ?!?!?!.. Should I give up a half-degree .. In a "you-want-good" to which I want so much, well .. Complicity reached with my friends .. No, not good!
So, how I want it I'm damn 2007?
Whole ..
slow (not too busy because I have a short memory) ..
and teach me to not always be the eternal unsatisfied ..
understand what I want!!
Here, half a conclusion I have reached!
Luckily January 2 .. so do not worry I will not be so throughout the year !!!!!
Forgive me for the mental ruminations and Happy New Year my friends and you're all happy with the 2007!
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